Crib notes #2

Filed under: baby's progress,thoughts — by Lauren on April 12th, 2007 @ 11:03 pm

Big night tonight. Anya is going to spend her first night in her crib in her very own room. It was a little difficult to get her to go to sleep, but to be fair, her inner clock is all messed up from having been in a different time zone the past 10 days and from getting about half as much sleep last night as usual due to coming back to NJ on a red-eye flight.

I think this is going to be much more difficult for me than for her. I’m not ready for her to move out of our room. Part of it comes from not wanting to have to actually get out of bed when she wakes up at night. It was very convenient to reach over to her in the Co-Sleeper and either soothe her back to sleep or pick her up to feed her. She’s still not sleeping through the night, and I can’t imagine why putting her in her own room would magically make her sleep longer. Part of me worries, too, that she’ll be frightened when she wakes up and is all alone, although I know that with time she will get used to that, and in fact NEEDS to learn how to handle being alone eventually. However, a bigger part of my reluctance comes from feeling sad about her not sleeping right next to me anymore. I love have Anya near me. I love the sound of her breathing, watching her dreaming, and just knowing she’s so close by. I’m sure it sounds crazy, but I am going to miss her, even though she’s just across the hall. I feel like she’s already growing up, and she’s still such a little baby. We always blog about how big she is, but in the crib she looks tiny to me.  I’m not ready for her to grow up yet.
Despite my feelings, I sincerely hope tonight goes smoothly. We’ll update soon.

One Response to “Crib notes #2”

  1. Grammy Says:

    Good luck! It’s important and right and proper to help your precious little girl “grow up” and become more independent, step by step, even though it is always hard for the parents.